Thursday, October 19, 2017

Current Life Perspective

I found this meme a while back and found that it resonated quite a bit with my current life. I spent much of the last few years making new friends and having amazing experiences. But, as can be expected, good things come to an end. Is it disappointing? Did I mourn the loss? Initially, yes I did. I felt the gamut of emotions - sad, mad, disappointed, indifferent, frustrated, annoyed and then nothing. Some days it was easier to handle and it felt like there was light at the end of the tunnel. Other days, it just felt like a muddled mess, forever imprisoned to these thoughts of disappointment and frustration.

But, time does heal. I truly believe that.  In the end I've come out of it much more level headed, able to see where I was naive and where I allowed myself to be swayed and influenced. Not anymore. I don't think I've grown hard-hearted - I still welcome the new things in life and more so, the things that replace the hurt. I may be far more cautious, but I'm not closed-off - just more experienced and weary of people and things that overwhelm me. And the things that have remained and the new people and experiences that have come my way, have brought more happiness and genuine joy to my life.

So, if there is one thing I'm reminded of about life is that it is ever-changing. And that's part of the  amazing journey of life - we cannot expect things to remain the same. People change. Experiences change. Circumstances change. Interests change. I'm sure I could go on but you get what I mean. Now instead of mourning of what use to be, I try to look back with fond nostalgia and try to see the moments of my life as learning experiences. I want to be better. I want to do better. Insomuch as I am able to make things better - or even just try to make things less worse - I try my best to do that. The rest I leave in God's hands because I know that He is sovereign and ultimately in control.

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